Love Bug Musings

Desire

I ache for you constantly

Craving the touch of your skin

And the feeling of hugging you

Everything about you excites me

I need to hear your voice

I want to smell your hair

When we are apart for days at a time

My body comes alive at the thought of you

I breathe differently, my body feels your presence

When we are joined together

I am at peace and in love

Wanting you grows with each encounter

Intensity of pleasure grows

This is what I want to explore

The connection, the intensity of our love

I want you

I need and desire you
I love you completely

Beauty
(For Susan)

The most beautiful thing I have ever seen
Has yet to be captured in a photograph
Sufficient vocabulary escapes me to describe it

It transcends all previous definitions
A combination of so many qualities
That I never imagined packaged into one

It’s beyond the obvious physical beauty
More than the heartwarming smile
Style, grace and manner are also present

Intelligence and creativity in abundance

It is inspirational and reassuring
It is a manner of being with others

Magnetic in a multitude of ways
Through touch, voice, listening, and kindness
I ache to see and be surrounded by this beauty daily

I am alive
I can feel emotions long suppressed
Infinitely more human with such beauty

The most beautiful thing I have ever seen…
Is YOU
And I love you

Absence

I can still feel you

A residue of touch and emotion

But it fades with time and distance

The ache of absence sets in

When will I see you again?

When will I feel you again?

Let the countdown begin

To our next encounter

But time is slow when we are apart

Absence is painful and sweet

I dislike it, but it strengthens our bond

An unpleasant investment in love

Everyday I await you

Your presence, your messages, your voice

Relief and joy that you exist

When will I see you again?

When will I feel you again?

I need you, I love you

Comfort

Comfort

Being next to you
And feeling you breathe

Being in bed with you
And holding you in my arms

Holding your hand
And not wanting to ever let go

Talking to you
And feeling completely accepted

Listening to you
And being engrossed

Being with you is like being at home
And you are my home

Happiness

I thought I knew happiness

Fulfillment in life and work

Mindful of my place in the universe

Savoring, gratitude, acceptance

Guided me to a peak

I didn't know there were other mountains

There are peaks that are higher

You are my guide to this new peak

And yet I still don't know how high it is

Do you?

Perhaps the peak doesn't exist

A stairway without end

You've taken my hand

And led me up the first step of the path

Then another, and another...

Are you as happy as I?

Your eyes and smile say yes

I had no idea this existed

But it does, and the path is not well worn

That is a good sign

We have chosen to be ourselves

To be vulnerable and honest

To be human and imperfect

Mutual empathy, caring, appreciation

Pave our path ever higher

We have found the secret path

Because our eyes are open

We were finally ready to see

The lessons of the past have brought clarity

We are meant to be

Kindness

(For Susan)

I thought I was dead
No pulse, or barely one
No feelings whatsoever
Isolated, alone and not minding it

A well inside me had been blocked
Miles of concrete preventing the flow
Nothing grows without water
I don’t grow either

But a detonation has occurred
The well is gushing forth with nourishment
Kindness, caring, and thoughtfulness
Are flooding my fields

You opened the well
You inspire kindness and thoughtfulness
I’m growing again
And you are the source

Gratitude

Does luck exist or do we make it?
Perhaps it’s both
Or maybe luck is perception of chaos
So am I lucky?

Lady Luck, the giver of fortune
I thought you had forsaken me
Perhaps I simply needed to work harder
It’s obvious you see me now

Maybe I couldn’t see
Vision like a mole
Unable to distinguish opportunity from noise
Clarity has appeared through light

I am lucky
The apparition of opportunity is before me
Seize it before it fades into darkness
The gratitude of the lottery winner